The title of this blog haunts me a bit. Mostly because I feel so without purpose. I mean, I know I have purpose in the God-absolutely-put-me-here-for-a-reason sense, but I’m having trouble figuring it out in the practical sense. What am I doing right now? How does that fit in the big scheme of things? Should I be doing something else? Should I be embracing the present? Should I try harder? Am I trying too hard? Am I even asking the right questions? I have no idea.
On the path which is life, I feel like I’m wandering in circles, passing the same landmarks again and again, expending a lot of energy in a random sort of way instead of a put-one-foot-in-front-of-the-other-and-eventually-you’ll-get-somewhere sort of way. It’s frustrating.
But having said that, I think my frustration comes from my habit of doing instead of being. Other than intellectually, I’ve never really understood–really known–that I’m valuable not because of what I do (getting an A, helping someone in need, raising good kids, producing pearls of wisdom, etc.) but simply because of who I am. To put it differently, I’ve never truly understood the concept of grace.
So this is my quest. I’m trying to tackle this thing that I should wish I would have learned years ago; I’m trying to really “get” grace, not just in my head, but in my soul.
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Yes, grace is such a hard concept for us to grasp. I struggle to find it and I don’t think I’m completely there yet but slowly striving to reach it.
I think once we “get it” we will be in heaven.
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Thank you so much for sharing this. I feel the same way most of the time. Being unable to have children thus far has left me questioning who I am supposed to be. What I’m supposed to do. What my purpose in life is. It leaves me paralyzed and confused and unsure a lot of the time. Like you, I know that God has a purpose for me, but don’t know the pracitcal purpose that lies within the greater purpose (if that makes sense
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Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks for sharing so much of yourself. It is a great encouragement and blessing to me.
Just wanted to comment on your purpose…you are helping lots of women with what you are doing right now. Your words help me..I can’t quite explain it yet, (I was not blessed with the gift of using words that make sense to anyone else.) but you really help me. I’m sure there are many others. Thank you! I’ll be praying for your grace-pursuit!
Personally when I would struggle with this it was always in that mom stage, raising kids. I finally got some peace when I resigned myself to the fact that investing in my kids, no matter how cliche sounding, really was my purpose, my calling during those years. I think your purpose, especially as a woman changes during your life stages.
Maybe the fact that it’s so mundane/ordinary to be raising kids kind of masks the fast that it’s such an important purpose. Imagine the way you can impact society by raising extraordinary kids whose world view and foundation will impact countless people!
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“WOW!”
That is what I said when I finished reading this post. You understand!
Thank you for this!