I stopped blogging between May 2007 and July 2008. Following is a list of posts explaining my absence:
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Hi there. I'm Amy. I write here about my life and my issues. I also design blogs and websites at Uncluttered Design. I'm a mom to 4 and a former pastor's wife.
Great to have you back, Amy! I am not much of a blog reader and yet I stubbled upon yours awhile ago. I have continually checked back and am overjoyed that you are writing again. I greatly appreciate your honesty and openness. Thanks for sharing! Praying for y’all.
Hi Stacia…thanks!
Hi Amy,
I stumbled upon your very cool site while googling pastor’s wives. I am one!
Your blog about the “dark” time touched my heart. We have all been there. My husband and I have been in ministry for 26 years. We refer to the ministry as “brutaful”. There is a beautiful side that we love that includes seeing people come to Christ, grow in their relationship with Him and move on to maturity. But, there is a brutal side that comes from Satan trying to get us off track. That shows up in negative people, trust issues and the all consuming nature of the ministry. We continually fight this fight. I am thrilled that you are healing and getting your life in the sweet place of God’s will. If I can offer some selfish advice, I would like to tell you that this “break” doesn’t mean that you are out of the ministry for good. Listen to the Lord as he strengthens your heart, your marriage and your ministry. I hope to hear more from you on this.
Blessings to you.
Lisa Young
Amy,
I too am a pastors wife of 15 years. I married an electrical engineer in the Air Force. He felt God calling him into the ministry so we moved, went to seminary and then got sent to a small town in IL. It was a goood first church. Small but we were loved and cared for. Then it was time for a change and we moved to a little bit bigger church in TN closer to my family in Atlanta. It has been awful since we arrived. My husband has be so mistreated. The pastor before him was removed for sexual stuff and so it seems this is an after pastor. They don’t trust. I hate to even go to church anymore and only do so for my kids. Mike is looking for a new congregation, but like you I often wonder if maybe he should just get an engineering job. The stress on him has been physical with very high blood pressure and really the church could care less.
Amy –
I was wondering what happened to you, and googled you and found your blog – I’m so sorry to hear how things went in Rochester – I know Justin and Brian did e-mail a bit. I’m bookmarking your blog and looking forward to “catching” up in cyberspace with you. I really appreciate your honesty and willingness to let so many in to your world.
Amy-
I absolutely love your blog. When you talk you sound just like me. I am a youth pastor’s wife and just coming out of serious depression. I understand what it feels like to want to die and to feel absolutely abandoned by God. Someone above mentioned that you are “healing and getting you life in the sweet peace of God’s will.” I just want to point out that, despite much Christian opinion, depression doesn’t always come from being out of God’s will. Sometimes it is His will for us. Sometimes our good and gracious God puts us in a place where we are in enough misery that death seems welcome. God’s will for us is that we be conformed to the image of His Son, and HIS WILL is whatever it takes to get us there. Depression is not always punishment for sin, but God’s provision in bringing about His glory in our lives. To those out there who have never thought of jumping off a cliff, God bless you. To those like me, like Amy, hang in there girls- pretty soon you’ll learn how to welcome the rain.