Wow.

March 26, 2007

Sometimes, a little distance is good. Like when you take a break from blogging and then you go back to your blog after not having looked at it for months and then you see, you really, really see just how sick you really are.

I’ve been reading through previous posts and I have to say, I think Carolin P. was really on to something. I sound bitter, really bitter in places. And I don’t think I just sound bitter, I am bitter. At least that’s what I get from some of my posts. Geez, I need some serious heart change.

As I’ve been reading, I’ve resisted the urge to rewrite, fix, change or DELETE in order to make myself look better. (I did change my About page a bit. Even I have limits.) The truth is, I’ve s t r u g g l e d through the last four years of my life and pastor’s wifedom. But thank God for His grace, His forgiveness and most amazingly, His redemption. Oh God, I’m so sorry, please refine me.

Category: Life

Comments

4 Responses to “Wow.”

  1. Shash
    March 28th, 2007 @ 2:37 pm

    I can say that I HATED being the Pastor’s wife around year 2 or 3, the honeymoon phase quickly wore off and I was just worn out. I went into hybernation for a few years and it’s just been in the last 4 years that I’ve begun to enjoy myself again. It’s a much better place to be in.

    It took a lot of patience on my hubby’s part, a ton of prayer and a lot of time spent with other stronger leaders to get a better grip on WHO I was. I’m still working through the performance issues but it is getting easier - thank God!!

  2. Julie
    March 29th, 2007 @ 1:05 pm

    So glad you’re back. We’ve missed you!

    The forum has helped me so much to deal with these emotions. It’s been like a breath of fresh air to be able to share with ladies’ who’ve been there. It’s what God intended for all women. Thanks again for getting it going. I’d say it’s been a smashing success.

  3. Maiju
    April 11th, 2007 @ 1:57 am

    I’m so happy you are back! I really enjoy your blog. I tend to have months gaps in my blogging but when i do it I always check yours. Keep doing it when you find time. In my blog you can see pictures from my trip to South Africa. More coming soon…

  4. karla
    May 3rd, 2007 @ 10:46 pm

    so, i thought the fishing post was kinda funny. and i know that we shouldn’t be negative all the time….or bitter or putting others down. but the fishing comment sounded more in a humorous light than any of those things. don’t let trying to be too positive distract you from who you really are….a person with both happy and not-so-happy emotions and thoughts.

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