The Point of No Return

March 26, 2006

It happens to me about this time in every pregnancy. It’s the deeply profound realization that I’m going to give birth to this child whether I like it or not. (I don’t like it.) I’m excited to meet our new addition (he really needs a name), but I’m not particularly excited about going through what I have to go through to get him here. I try to convince myself that it won’t be that bad. But I’m just lying to myself.

Some say I should just have the epidural. I’ve thought about it, but I’m way too pessimistic. Somehow I’ve convinced myself that sure as shootin’, I’ll be the one in 4.2 gazillion that ends up paralyzed from the procedure. I told you I have issues.

And how can it be that as soon as they put that new little munchkin on your belly, you realize you’d do it all over again. Gladly.

Category: Love, Parenting

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11 Responses to “The Point of No Return”

  1. Lazy Mommy
    March 25th, 2006 @ 10:14 pm

    I’m kind of a sci-fi geek and at one point during my first delivery I actually found myself wishing that someone could just beam the baby out.

  2. Amy
    March 25th, 2006 @ 10:23 pm

    I hear that. I keep hoping I’ll wake up one morning and there the baby will be.

  3. caroline
    March 26th, 2006 @ 12:28 am

    I had four c-sections (by necessity) … completely knocked out with each one (first one by necessity - last three for my sanity). To this day I refuse to watch any of those medical shows where they show the procedure being done. I don’t want to know how they got out of there. I really don’t.

  4. Melissa R
    March 26th, 2006 @ 8:09 am

    Ha ha it is good to know that I am not the only person that wishes a baby could be beamed out. I ended up having to go the c-section route too so now it is not as freaky to me to think that I am going to have to push the baby out which is a good thing since my first one was over 10 pounds and my second was over 11. I breed monster babies.

  5. Stacy
    March 27th, 2006 @ 7:44 pm

    I felt that way this summer right before Becca was born. It’s not so much getting her out that was the problem because I had a repeat c-section, it was the changes that she was going to bring to our lives. Was I ready for that? It was an easier adjustment than I thought.

  6. B
    March 28th, 2006 @ 1:13 pm

    I’m due with #2 this summer. I’m a big ‘ol believer in the epidural, despite the fact that I, too, have “issues.” I fretted for months over the fact that I drank coffee and slept under an electric blanket the first few weeks of my first pregnancy, but the epidural didn’t scare me in the least, oddly enough. I was waaaay more scared of childbirth without drugs, and rightly so it turns out, since I had a nearly 10 lb. baby. Plan to have an epidural with this one, too.

    Hope your labor and delivery goes beutifully, with as little pain as possible. Many blessings.

  7. Kim
    March 31st, 2006 @ 1:25 pm

    I had an epidural with the first and thought it was the scariest and worst part of the whole ordeal. With the next two I didn’t have anything, just natural and I would do it again. That needle in the back scared me. I will say that with the next two deliveries, walking into the hospital my only thoughts were “I really don’t want to be here!!!” Good luck. I think you’ve made the right choice with the epidural.

  8. Teresa
    April 2nd, 2006 @ 12:41 am

    I had 5 children, babies 2 & 3 with epidurals. My doc was really promoting it. The first epi went smooth, no problems, just felt very wierd to be numb. The third went crazy - I had 4 epidurals and a caudle. The anesthesiologist ended up puncturing my spinal column and I had 2 weeks of migraines. So, needless to say, I wouldn’t let anyone touch my back again. I still have pain in that spot. But, I’m sure it had to do with the anesthesiologist - check him/her out. find out if she is highly recommended.

  9. Kelly
    April 2nd, 2006 @ 1:09 pm

    I’m the wife of a YP, married one year… and newly expecting our first baby- due in December. Sitting here crying on a Sunday afternoon because I am skipping a youth event- I feel sick and exhausted, my lovely husband told me I could stay home. Why do I feel guilty about not going?????

  10. Amy
    April 2nd, 2006 @ 9:22 pm

    Well, I’ve gotta admit that knowing some of your stories makes me feel better—probably like misery loves company. And Kelly, congratulations…and don’t feel guilty. This is only the beginning. :)

  11. Marci
    May 16th, 2006 @ 1:11 am

    Amy, this is my first post and I am loving your site! I am a “seasoned” YPW who was born in 1975 and stand at 6′1. I have two beautiful children. My first was natural with a little shot of “State-all” and everything went great. I left the hospital saying “I could do this again”, however, my second was different. I decided to take the epidural thinking it would be a breeze, 2 problems occurred: 1)My 5 year old son tried to tackle the anethesiologist across the bed when he saying him sticking a huge needle into mommy. 2)They overdosed me on the medication thinking I would need more because of my height. I couldn’t feel the blanket on my leg little lone push a 9lb. baby out. I layed my hand on my leg and thought it was somebody elses. Very weird! I left saying I was done. We are oneness believers and I tell people that we don’t believe in the trinity so we will stop at two. :-)

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